I don’t know about you but when I ask someone this question I genuinely want to know. Honestly, how are you? Are you okay? Is there anything that is making you particularly happy/sad at the moment? I have this need inside me where I have to make sure everyone is okay and as long as they are, I’m happy. But today I’m not writing about when we ask other people this question, I want you to ask yourself this question. Am I okay? Deep down inside of you, are you tired? Happy? Nervous? Lonely? It’s something I’ve never thought to ask myself before because I’ve always just assumed I would know if I’m not okay. But when I got low (like, reeeally low) last week I started worrying about myself…am I okay? It had got to the point where I had been miserable for a long long time and I couldn’t blame it on lack of sleep one night, or eating junk food the day before because I just had this feeling so so often. I had to really evaluate myself and get to the root of why I was being like this. Am I miserable because of something? How often does this happen? Am I ill? It was happening more and more frequently and if I didn’t actually do something about it then it could just go on forever. It was then that I realised that I had just accepted I was feeling down for quite a long time and yet I didn’t know why and I hadn’t done anything about it. My miserable mood had very slowly built up and, that week, I think it was bubbling at the top of the pot. Lesson? Ask yourself if you’re okay and actually listen. Do not lie to yourself and do not sugar coat things because you will end up making it much worse! From now on I will be writing my mood of the day in my diary – every day. It won’t be a “hmm, oh I dunno… happy?”, it will be an honest representation of how I feel, probably with a sentence to actually describe it. I hope that doing this will make me take notice of what it is that’s making me feel that way and, if it’s a negative feeling then I will be able to find a solution. Tired? Get more sleep! Unmotivated? Watch someone that motivates me on Youtube. Ultimately, take care of myself. Stop going through life thinking “oh I’ll be fine, it’s not what I do to myself, it’s what others do that I need to worry about!”… a lot of the time we can destroy ourselves more than other people do. Having negative emotions can slowly tear us apart without us noticing. Realise and approach those feelings before they can affect you and you will be a much better, happier person, I promise you!
Also, can I just say how much this annoys me that I’m uploading this on a Tuesday…?! My OCD is telling me to change the date to Monday but I really don’t want it to affect me so I’m posting it with todays date. End of! It really shouldn’t affect me this much haha!
I hope you all have a lovely week, and if any of you ever had a bad day I would honestly love to talk about it and try and help 🙂 it makes me happy to listen!
P.S. The next post will be a lot more cheery, promise!